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Sep. 23rd, 2011 07:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
krowfaceThe new job is just fine. I'm perfectly capable of doing it well, I enjoy doing it (or I enjoy not working at the old fucking place anymore), and my customers and co-workers like me just fine.
It pays well, and it affords me enough free time to work on the design work. It also looks incredibly stable, and with enough time, I definately see chance for advancement.
I wasn't getting as many hours as I wanted, but that's already changed. It's the commute. It's really a lot.
Between being on the train for an hour and a half each way, and the full hour of biking each way, and the fact I work overnights now, I think I'm losing my mind a little. The disconnect is weird. At the same time, the more I look at the internet, the more I think maybe some alone time would be worth it.
Now if I could just find a nice place somewhere really close to work, that would be nice.
So I'm really sore and really tired all the time. At least I'm getting some fresh air and exercise, right?
...
Now that I'm adjusted to the new job, I can get back to work on what I started two weeks ago.
...
The best thing going on right now is the baby. Both Kate and I are stressed, but we're very happy. We know the future's going to be hard, but we're looking forward to it. I mean what good time is ever easy?
Every one of these little moments have been so joyous and life affirming.
The heartbeat, the video of it's movement. Today I actually felt it moving and kicking physically.
Resting my hand on her stomache, I could almost believe for a moment that our child felt my presence there. It was if they were trying to reach for me and find a finger to grip. I'm sure it was only reacting to the pressure and the warmth of my hand, but the way it seems to keep reaching out and reaching out...
Another sign that this life was on it's way, and I fill up with such childlike wonder that I almost burst.
This is life, I'm a part of it.
I already know what they mean by having a child means unconditional love. And I don't mean theirs as an offspring. I mean mine as the father.
...
Stil tired as hell though. haha.
It pays well, and it affords me enough free time to work on the design work. It also looks incredibly stable, and with enough time, I definately see chance for advancement.
I wasn't getting as many hours as I wanted, but that's already changed. It's the commute. It's really a lot.
Between being on the train for an hour and a half each way, and the full hour of biking each way, and the fact I work overnights now, I think I'm losing my mind a little. The disconnect is weird. At the same time, the more I look at the internet, the more I think maybe some alone time would be worth it.
Now if I could just find a nice place somewhere really close to work, that would be nice.
So I'm really sore and really tired all the time. At least I'm getting some fresh air and exercise, right?
...
Now that I'm adjusted to the new job, I can get back to work on what I started two weeks ago.
...
The best thing going on right now is the baby. Both Kate and I are stressed, but we're very happy. We know the future's going to be hard, but we're looking forward to it. I mean what good time is ever easy?
Every one of these little moments have been so joyous and life affirming.
The heartbeat, the video of it's movement. Today I actually felt it moving and kicking physically.
Resting my hand on her stomache, I could almost believe for a moment that our child felt my presence there. It was if they were trying to reach for me and find a finger to grip. I'm sure it was only reacting to the pressure and the warmth of my hand, but the way it seems to keep reaching out and reaching out...
Another sign that this life was on it's way, and I fill up with such childlike wonder that I almost burst.
This is life, I'm a part of it.
I already know what they mean by having a child means unconditional love. And I don't mean theirs as an offspring. I mean mine as the father.
...
Stil tired as hell though. haha.
