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as love crowns you he crucifies you
we must bleed willingly. i bleed joyfully
West Philly, PA 2011
"Oh, wearisome condition of humanity, Born under one law, to another bound;
Vainly begot, and yet forbidden vanity, Created sick, commanded to be sound."
I treat the title "friend" with the greatest of reverence.
If I would not defend your honour, you're not privy to my protected LiveJournal Entries.
If you're a fan, please add this fan page to your life.
If you want to get closer to me, all you have to do is try.
My love is a gift, and it must be done justice, through sacrifice.
Because that's how I would love you.
And I demand allegiance and respect be a two way street.
If you feel you're seeing this message in error, feel free to contact me.
Child of the 80's. Jersey Boy. Art School Kid.
I am a rough man with dignified manners.
I did the dot-com thing the first time around. Now I'm doing it a second time.
I traveled the country for 10 years.
Once in a while I mix things up by making bad choices. But I think I'm ok now.
Currently in Philly, I'm seeking my Bachelor's in Theatre Design. Then I'm going to get my Master's in Museum Exhibition.
My career goal is to open a museum. My life goal is to be a good person.
I know a few stupid human tricks.
Shiva is my goddess, and I believe all things serve the beam.
If I cannot lead by example, I will serve as a horrible warning.
Nonsense is our salvation.
I'm a gracefully aging dharma punk, a morbid romantic, a warrior poet, an egomaniac with a low self-esteem,
and the most beautiful monster you'll ever meet.
"I've met God across his long walnut desk with his diplomas hanging on the wall behind him, and God asks me, "Why?" Why did I cause so much pain? Didn't I realize that each of us is a sacred, unique snowflake of special unique specialness? Can't I see how we're all manifestations of love? I look at God behind his desk, taking notes on a pad, but God's got this all wrong. We are not special. We are not crap or trash, either. We just are. We just are, and what happens just happens. And God says, "No, that's not right." Yeah. Well. Whatever. You can't teach God anything."
- from "Fight Club", by Chuck Palahniuk
You're the only one who can hold your head up high,
Shake your fists at the gates saying:
"I have come home now!
Fetch me the spirit, the son, and the father.
Tell them their pillar of faith has ascended.
It's time now!
My time now!
Give me my, give me my wings!"
Give me my wings!
You are the light and way, that they will only read about.
Set as I am in my ways and my arrogance,
Burden of proof tossed upon the believers.
You were the witness, my eyes, my evidence,
Judith Marie, unconditional one.
Daylight dims leaving cold fluorescence.
Difficult to see you in this light.
Please forgive this bold suggestion:
Should you see your Maker's face tonight,
Look Him in the eye, look Him in the eye, and tell Him:
I never lived a lie, never took a life, but surely saved one.
Hallelujah, it's time for you to bring me home.
"Quidquid latine dictum sit, altum sonatur."
"A witty saying proves nothing."
"The ability to quote is a serviceable substitute for wit."
- W. Somerset Maugham
"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation."
- Oscar Wilde
"quoting your friends is not quoting."
• Sun in Scorpio, Moon in Aries
• Ascendant in Gemini, Mercury in the Sixth House
• Saturn in the Third House
• Venus in the Fifth House
• Sun in the Sixth House
• Moon in the Eleventh House
Scorpio is the sign that is the most misinterpreted and just plain dumped on of any sign in the zodiac. This is a great tragedy. To be sure this sign is a force to be reckoned with, but this can go either way.
Scorpio's hardest journey in life is to leave the dark side behind. In the Scorpionic way of perciving, there is a very fine line between heaven and hell, pain and pleasure. They live with the dark, they see the horridness and misery of all the fires of hell every day. For them it is quite literally just as easy and possible that they will kill someone as it is they will greet them that day.
Having said that, the other side of the Scorpio is the brilliance that is creation. They can learn to see that also, and to bring about great joy in others. In essence they are the destroyer and the creator in one. They are the lowly scorpion and the sacred phoenix.
The Scorpio has great powers of transformation and their first order of business should be to transform themselves.
Now then, in day to day interactions the Scorpio is very willful, but not necessarily dynamic. They can wax laziness if they do not direct their energies properly. Their sense of loyalty will keep them from being irresponsible, however.
Willfulness and stubborness often go hand in hand. This stubborness can turn to resentfullness and vindictiveness if the Scorpio does not watch this carefully. This has lead to Scorpio being the butt of revenge jokes. Behind this is the fact that Scorpio never forgets a slight. They have a great sense of pride and if you hurt that, you have wounded them greatly; it will not be forgiven.
Scorpios also have the reputation of sex fiends. While they do enjoy kinky sex usually, once again their loyalty prevents them from being unfaithful. They can have problems in relationships due to their fear of intimacy. In this manner sex is very important to them, since it binds them to their partners, however the unevolved Scorpio tries to avoid this type of honesty. The holier-than-thou attitude also must be dealt with in order for them to bond properly.
However, once a Scorpio has dealt with his dark side, you will find no more supportive and caring partner anywhere in the zodiac.
When trying to work with a Scorpio, appeal to their sense of logic and loyalty. You must earn a Scorpios loyalty, but once given it is usually steadfast.</i>
According to The Keirsey Temperament Sorter-II, the most widely used personality instrument in the world, I am a "Rational Architect" (INTP).
'Architects need not be thought of as only interested in drawing blueprints for buildings or roads or bridges. They are the master designers of all kinds of theoretical systems, including school curricula, corporate strategies, and new technologies. For Architects, the world exists primarily to be analyzed, understood, explained - and re-designed. External reality in itself is unimportant, little more than raw material to be organized into structural models. What is important for Architects is that they grasp fundamental principles and natural laws, and that their designs are elegant, that is, efficient and coherent.
Architects are rare - maybe one percent of the population - and show the greatest precision in thought and speech of all the types. They tend to see distinctions and inconsistencies instantaneously, and can detect contradictions no matter when or where they were made. It is difficult for an Architect to listen to nonsense, even in a casual conversation, without pointing out the speaker's error. And in any serious discussion or debate Architects are devastating, their skill in framing arguments giving them an enormous advantage. Architects regard all discussions as a search for understanding, and believe their function is to eliminate inconsistencies, which can make communication with them an uncomfortable experience for many.
Ruthless pragmatists about ideas, and insatiably curious, Architects are driven to find the most efficient means to their ends, and they will learn in any manner and degree they can. They will listen to amateurs if their ideas are useful, and will ignore the experts if theirs are not. Authority derived from office, credential, or celebrity does not impress them. Architects are interested only in what make sense, and thus only statements that are consistent and coherent carry any weight with them.
Architects often seem difficult to know. They are inclined to be shy except with close friends, and their reserve is difficult to penetrate. Able to concentrate better than any other type, they prefer to work quietly at their computers or drafting tables, and often alone. Architects also become obsessed with analysis, and this can seem to shut others out. Once caught up in a thought process, Architects close off and persevere until they comprehend the issue in all its complexity. Architects prize intelligence, and with their grand desire to grasp the structure of the universe, they can seem arrogant and may show impatience with others who have less ability, or who are less driven.'
However, I believe both Astrology and The Keirsey Temperament Sorter-II are a bunch of bullshit.
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