krowface | So About This Blog…

Originally published at One Misfired Synapse. You can comment here or there.

I keep meaning to update this blog with something new and interesting, but honestly I haven’t found the time. The only reason I’m posting something now, is because I’m waiting for something to render in the background.

I’ve become a victim of the economy, but I’m certainly not spending my time in my boxers playing video games, no matter how hard I feel I’ve earned that right. Instead of gone into “freelance mode”. What does this mean? It means I’m actually spending more time out of my week working than I did when I had a full-time job. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I try to play video games, but after about an hour I find my head drifting off and rummaging through my inbox. Which is funny, because it’s supposed to be the other way around right?

I’m just not happy unless I’m staying busy. So if I’m not working on projects, I’m working on projecting myself. Whatever time I don’t spend on gigs, I spend looking for more gigs. I’m starting to get into the idea of promoting myself, of being my own public relations machine. Being social, networking, finding collaborations. Basically I’m now getting into the new habit of promoting myself and my work. It’s an uphill battle, but that’s my fault, and I’ve learned to accept it.

Years ago, I was always of the mind that my art had to prove myself. I figured the worth and value of it, if it was strong enough, would allow it to be found. As if it would be sold on it’s own merit. It took years to realize that’s really not that case. Now I understand that putting a price tag on it doesn’t make it any less valuable.

Yeah, it’s a learning process alright, doing this. I wouldn’t want it any other way. So yeah, I get it, my art has value. It will be seen for it’s own merit. I’m just done being shy about it. Time to start stop hiding in the corner. Even if that means getting in some people’s faces.