What the FUCK was I thinking last night?

[krowface]

In a drunken haze I wordlessly and gently embraced my ex at the bar last night.

I don't know why I did it. But I did it, and there's no taking that back.

We held each other in our arms for quite a while, and it almost felt like forever.

That old feeling came back, that way how we used to physically sync up like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle.

It felt good, and felt right, and felt loving and natural.

And I hate that.

I really, really hate that.

...

Afterwards I freaked out for a few minutes. Luckily, no one noticed, and my fiancee and a new friend was there to support me. Thank god. I could've done much, much worse.

And I think she might've let me.

I hate that too.

Comments

[sunshyn689.livejournal.com]

dinner soon? please? and, if she's around, please bring the fiancee, i'm dying to meet this girl :)

[krowface.livejournal.com]

how's the beginning of april sound? i'm strapped due to bills right now.

amee might be around. she visits about once or twice a month for a few days at a clip.

[sunshyn689.livejournal.com]

beginning of april sounds perfect. :)

*big hugs*

[cryptess.livejournal.com]

-o.o-

[the-kake.livejournal.com]

Don't let it get the best of you, love. After a time, things happen and you either let it destroy you, or you let it pass.

Let it pass.

[ir-g0d355.livejournal.com]

Idk, I think that's kind of sweet, actually. That is the Krow I know and dearly love who has this big huge heart and doesn't truly hate anyone, because that' just so petty.

Then again, I'm in a weird mood lately. Prolly best to ignore me. ;)

[krowface.livejournal.com]

i would rather die than ignore you, if even for a minute.