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Yesterday was my first orientation for enrolling. I'm about to head out for my first private one-on-one meeting with my advocate/counselor/representati... you know, I don't know what to call her*.

I am practically weeping for joy in regards to my future. This woman was once a congressman, she has worked in the Mayor's Office, and she was also once the Secretary of Education for PHL.

Knowing that I have a woman like that in my corner, I am under the honest belief that from here on in that nothing will be able to stand in my way.

Any failings from here on in are mine. And that's incredibly freeing. I am now THE person responsible for my life and my future. I am the only one responsible, and I'm the only one that gets to be the failure as well. Now I can say "nobody's fault but my own," and it feels glorious.

Anyways, here's the quote for today:

"Never confuse movement with action." - Ernest Hemingway

* I should probably find that out. I need to make sure I entitle everyone correctly in my memoirs.

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I have been very proud of the fact that for a very long time I've had this attitude of taking my job very seriously, but not taking myself very seriously at all.

However, it really didn't get me much of anywhere. I ended up really coasting for a long time.

(Oh don't get me wrong, anyone who's been reading this journal since the beginning knows I've done a lot, and for the most part I've been pretty... prolific.)

Now however, I've decided to take myself very seriously. A big part of me is concerned about this change in attitude, because I see it as being selfish.

However, the other part of me knows it has to be okay to be selfish once in a while, and another part of me knows I have lived very very selflessly for most of my adult life.

So yeah, I'm okay with focusing on myself for the next few years. Once I'm done doing what I have to do, I'll make up for lost time and go back trying to save the world.